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SHERBEAR
09 January 2006 @ 06:00 pm
So i turned 25 last wednesday! IM GETTING OLD! I spent my birthday with my family for once! We went out to dinner at Outback steakhouse and the really surprising part is that Will actually went! It was nice :)
 
 
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SHERBEAR
19 December 2005 @ 05:17 pm
Horoscope for: Monday, December 19, 2005


Sheryll,
Showing your softer side can be a tough one for you Mountain Goats, perhaps because you learned in the past that vulnerability leads to betrayal. This week, however, you have a chance to heal a wound that you've carried within your subconscious mind for years. Forgive yourself first. Then let go of the hate or anger you might feel for others. Your core values can change as your hard edges soften.


SOOOO true! the past few days I have been so sad and angry at the same time that I don't know how to even feel lately. I got so angry at Will that I broke down Thursday night and started crying my eyes out, punching him wherever I could and just telling him how I felt. I have to let go of so much! I have to let go of Will. I have to let myself heal. I have to forgive myself for so many stupid decisions I made. I just need the strength to do it.
 
 
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SHERBEAR
13 August 2005 @ 01:18 pm
Sheryll,
It may feel as if one cycle is coming to a close. There are, however, still many things to do before launching your next set of projects. Don't let your anger come between you and your happiness. Whatever upsets you now, let it go. Move past it so you can use this time to heal.



needless to say, we are over yet once again, and this time its for good. :(
 
 
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SHERBEAR
10 August 2005 @ 06:09 pm
In the computer room, leaning on the speaker was Will's picture of him when he was like a year and a half years old on his mom's lap.... awww :) Ive been showing him pics of me when I was a little girl and I guess it kinda rubbed off of him.. cute!
 
 
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SHERBEAR
03 August 2005 @ 06:12 pm
Im trying to figure out what I should do - should I be without will or should i be with him.... here's what my horoscope said:


Sheryll,
If you were only left alone, you'd figure a way to make it all work efficiently, but that isn't going to happen now. Other people in your life are making their presence known and they want to be a part of what is going on. Control is your not-very-secret weapon. Share responsibility and power with your adversaries and the current situation will improve. Keep it to yourself, however, and you set the stage for failure.

weird!
 
 
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SHERBEAR
14 July 2005 @ 11:02 pm
I went to my grandpa's funeral today... It was weird.. It's the same funeral home my cousin was placed for viewing years ago... It's like going back to that and I was in elementary school when that happened and Im 24 now. Oh, how time flies by. My grandpa looked really thin. My aunt told me that he didn't eat for 2 weeks before he died. Food had to be forced down his throat to survive, but he just wanted to end it all.. *sigh* I wasn't real close to him but it really hits me. I hate funerals. I hate it. I hope I don't have to go to another one for a loong time! I'm at home now and for some reason, I just want to be with my family again. It just makes you think that if that was your close family member, how could u want to leave that funeral home? I don't think I could. :( This stuff really makes me think and want to spend all the time with my family :'(
 
 
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SHERBEAR
11 July 2005 @ 06:37 pm
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My grandfather died today :( I wasn't too close to him.. BUT he sure was a nice guy. I just feel horrible that I didnt get a chance to talk to him before he died. My mom kept telling me to go visit him more often coz he doesnt have that much time, which she was right. I never did visit him though. I feel so bad for my mother. She sounded like she has been crying. Havent we been through enough?

On another note, which is probably not surprising to anybody, Will and I have broken up for good. I am waiting for him to move his stuff. And now im back to being in a horrible condition.

Im hoping that I will be okay. Ive been through enough in one day. I just want this to all go away!
 
 
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SHERBEAR
30 June 2005 @ 09:56 pm
So i went to court today.... first time EVEER! i went to court for beating some chick up at the bar... yah - it was really bad - she was all fucked up hahaha!





nnnnnnnoooooooooottttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just went to court to get the pts taken off from my speeding ticket and its off - well after paying $140 blaahh....
 
 
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SHERBEAR
29 June 2005 @ 06:22 pm
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Will bought a computer for our apt. awww... he was soo cute about it too - it was $1800 altogether and almost 400 in rebates - yah he went all out! So then he text me with " were gonna have it good - i bought the best of everything - were gonna be fighting over computer time!" haha.. isnt he cute? then when I called him, he was like "im getting the computer out of the box and setting it up - its like christimas for me opening these boxes.. lol... he's never owed a computer his whole life so yah - it figures - hes VERY excited about it... its the cutest thing tho....
 
 
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SHERBEAR
19 June 2005 @ 09:23 pm
Will cleaned the apt. today while I am at work - which where I am now *boo* anyhoo - apparently, a black squirrel has been living on my balcony in the corner where the extra chairs and the small grill was sitting at. anyways - so will cleaned the balcony today and got rid of the stuff that was sitting in the corner and the squirrel came back angry as fuck and still built its nest or whatever under the grill. I went home for lunch and under the grill there were grass leaves and shit.. funny stuff :P
 
 
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